I find that i dont really know what to say. I knew your fate, but i couldnt accept it, the pain i felt knowing that you wouldn't be with us for much longer - it hurt. The tears i cried; and all the time you would just sit and look at me, your eyes asking the question 'whats up mommy?'. The decision i made, was the hardest of all ... a muffled 'i love you' and you were gone. I hope your all better now, i hope you forgive me :'( Kelsey, I love you. Lots of love, mummy x